Early Recovery. Blog 1 in Recovery Series
Care Becoming Quiet Understanding
I am Dr. Conway, a Tennessee physician who practices private medicine in Nashville. I have patients in early recovery with suboxone.
With time, stability forms. From stability, freedom follows. My work is to help you remain with what is difficult until it becomes understandable.
It is a privilege to witness life becoming more its own.
Introduction
Everyone tells you to recover. You want to stop fentanyl. You have suffered enough from withdrawal. You want to keep your money rather than spending it on fentanyl. You want your family to know that you will be alive tomorrow.
Everyone wants you in Recovery. You have started Suboxone. Your early experience with Suboxone may have been easy or difficult. You are now in a Suboxone program.
You must find the meaning of Recovery. You must develop a new identity built upon consistency and stability.
Recovery is a process, not an event!
You have just begun taking Suboxone in Nashville What must you do?
- First, you must adapt to a new routine.
- You must take your Suboxone at least once a day.
- You must protect your Suboxone from theft.
- You must stop taking fentanyl.
- You must delete the telephone numbers of your suppliers.
Your body is changing. Your feelings may change, with more anxiety, or less anxiety, or fluctuating anxiety
You are going through a process. Recovery continues, stabilizing over time, but does not disappear. Time marches on. This is not a “one and done” deal.
Recovery is a reorganization of Your Life: Habits, Structure, Consistency in Nashville
You understand that you must develop new habits. You must do certain things every day. You must be consistent if you are to become stable.
Getting through a new day requires a new focus on new routines. Doing simple things such as taking your Suboxone takes focus and energy. Going to work now takes energy. Feeling better is strange.
You are now making appointments for Suboxone. You now have a daily and weekly structure. Your life narrows to adapting to a fentanyl- free body and new routines. This all feels so very new. You are developing habits in Nashville.
Recovery requires Supports
You have lost some old friends. Your “old friend” fentanyl punished you, but you knew it well. Now, that life is gone. Your dealer seemed like your “friend”? At least you thought so! Or were you simply a good customer in Nashville?
You had associates that you shared your fentanyl with. Some are gone. A strange disorientation possesses you with different persons, places, and things.
You now have a Suboxone clinic in Nashville. You have an unspoken, but deep internal need for outside guidance. Your Suboxone clinic provides you the structure you need. Your Suboxone Clinic operates within clear guidance from Tennessee Rules. This guidance protects you. I provide Suboxone in Nashville in my private practice.
The temptation to return to Fentanyl is high. Many patients succumb to this temptation, returning to their dark, destructive world of fentanyl. Early Recovery must survive before it becomes stable.
To survive, you must seek support from those who support you.
Recovery replaces your Prior Identity of Fentanyl Use with a New Identity.
Your identity is changing. You are developing a sense of self that will last.
All of this is confusing, or disorienting, and frightening. You are changing on many levels. Your body is adapting to a new peace. Your social world is eliminating old acquaintances before adding new acquaintances. Your unconscious may break through with pain from the past. Your ego is struggling to understand the emerging you. You are different. Your self is fragile. You must integrate. You must choose not to return to the dark past of fentanyl.
Over month, your life stabilizes. Your craving should be reduced. You feel good. You do not miss your old life. Your old identity is in the past. You can now work. You can keep the money you made. Life is good in Nashville.
Conclusion
My work is to walk with you through those decisions — quietly, steadily, and without judgment. In private practice, I remain with you through each stage of recovery.
In the next blog on middle recovery, stability begins to deepen. Your identity strengthens.
I am William Conway, MD in Nashville
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